In other news, I am feeling pretty good with this Zoloft. I don't feel as angry, I don't feel as panicky, I don't feel as mad. I'm also feeling as if therapy is helping me with achieving goals and the like.
Onward and upward right?
I suck. I have been so busy that I haven't updated in 2 weeks. Things are going moderately well as of now and I am hoping things keep heading up.
We hired a new full tine aide for Gram that will work Monday through Friday from 9 to 5. This frees me and Eloise up to enjoy time together OUT OF THE HOUSE. This should also help my grandmother out as well by not feeling so agitated and in turn, not having "spells".
I'm feeling pretty good on the zoloft. I need to call the new shrink and see if I can get in to see her and if not, make a follow up with the current one I see. I'm not a huge fan of her nor her office. They're rude and I really don't think they do anything other than push pills then escort you out the door. I don't feel as mad as I had been and I feel more even if that makes sense. I am also not eating as much and that means I'm losing weight. It's a nice side effect.
I applied for a night job at a local bulk store and need to hustle and find a job soon. I don't believe the government has voted to extend unemployment insurance and I think mine runs out soon. I think working nights while Bird sleeps would be the most doable thing- I will avoid daycare and the associated costs, I'll have mornings and afternoons with Bird and hopefully weekends as well. I do need to up the hustle though and apply to more places.
I've got my little love snuggled up to me right now after an easy day together. Poor girl got sick on the car again today- this means that it doesn't matter what direction her car seat is, she's gonna get sick. The real test is tomorrow as we drive to the other side of the island to get our taxes done. Hopefully she makes it with a few stops in between. Fingers crossed for a hefty refund.
I have to pay my mom back for loaning me cash to fix the car and also pay her back for the cost of getting the taxes done. After that, I'm thinking that I'll pay off student loan if I have enough money to cover it. Maybe I'll have some money left. I have to see how much of a return I am getting. Maybe I won't pay it off and instead spend a few bucks on myself and get a head start on Christmas shopping.
Although I didn't have a hot date tonight, I managed to have a alright day. There was my typical Gram vs Nurse interactions as well as trying to bring Gram back from her mental trip.
Bird isn't feeling well and I turn, I received an abundance of hugs and little snuggles. Poor thing had a runny nose, cough as well as some wheezing, nut luckily she isn't running a fever. Her appetite is a bit less, so I have to get creative I think.
Having Gram here and watching her slowly get more and more confused, angry and upset, makes me think a lot about my own mental health issues. If at the end, when I've lived my life to my choosing, I'm going to forget everything anyway why should I strive for a mentally healthy life now? There's a great chance I won't remember it; I can make up whatever kind if life I want at that time.